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Conflict is my favorite mistake

People say you can not predict one's success by what he will do, but what he has been doing. Tell me what you eat and I will tell who you are. They all tell same story. Then again, who am I?Everything about me is the combination of two extremes. A month ago, our group went out playing dark glowing mini golf while guys play agaist girls. While everyone else either sucked or kicked ass, I blew out a record of 2 strikes, 6 strikes, 2 strikes, 6 strikes, went on and on like stock market. I wonder whether that has something to do with the blood type, or astrology? I nearly failed college entrance test and survived a most uncompetitive college by weakly beating the margin, but I also scored number 1 in the freshman class to represent her in national mathematics competition. In those days HongKong returned to China, I took biggest airplane in the world taking off from Shanghai to Los Angelas, ended up landing in bug-occupied Lubbock, Texas in a 10 guests propeller, only to find out Subway is not really a subway. If 7 years ago, I didn't understand a "how are you doing" from Northwest's steward, today many people mistaken me as US born and grown up. Yes, I finished another most uncompetitive college in the middle of New Mexico desert, I also graduated from Stanford, paid by her as well. I studied all my life engineering and mathematics, but my raw talent is merely to be me on the big stage of life. I am overall pretty shy, almost never approach girls, but people again mistaken me as male pro club dancer when they see me dancing, I heard over and over from girls that I am one of the best dancer they have been with. Deep down, I don't have any formal dancing training. I am naturally competent on majority sports and brain tweaking, but I could not stand academia. I wonder what my talent is? With such a conflicting soul, I am searching for my meaning. What can I predict? People, do you have similar feeling, sometime?

posted by Road less travelled @ 9:38 PM